I have been trying not to consume so much at any given meal that I feel ill, or even uncomfortable. It helps that I’m trying to eat more slowly, as well, in order for my brain to catch up with my digestion and not keep telling me to eat when I’m actually already comfortably sated. Of course, this can be applied to other indulgences, as well, including drinking, smoking, gambling, all those “sins” that we are warned against.
Not having an addictive personality (or at least having outgrown it) allows me to be much more focused on the task at hand, even when the task is as dull as studying for an exam for which one only needs the ability to memorize things. It’s exactly the type of exam I detest, for there is no learning involved, merely repetitive rote drilling. That is what is so difficult for me right now. I want to understand the reasons why the rules are set forth as such, so that it’s not merely arbitrary…
But, alas, so many things in life are arbitrary, like some people’s tastes in various arts. The genre where this seems to come out most frequently (at least in my life) is music. We all have our tastes in music, and most of us have a range of likes (and dislikes), with reasons why we like one thing over another, or dislike something completely. We end up with a relationship with our choices, for the tunes and lyrics evoke emotions that we find pleasant, or at least provocative (in a good way, if such a thing is possible). Some like the mix and play of contrapuntal music; others base their selections purely on lyrics; yet others enjoy the flow of wordless music.
This afternoon, I participated in a protest at a retail outlet for a national telephone/internet service provider, in order to call attention to the potential destruction of the Internet as it has been developed, as a free space for the exploration of ideas, with little hierarchy. Internet service providers (ISPs for short) can potentially place a monetary value to certain ideas, and therefore charge customers according to the sites they (the customers) visit and, more importantly, frequent. Imagine how much money Spectrum (as Time Warner has rebranded itself) could make if it charged a penny for every Facebook visit made through its lines? Or it (in this case, Time Warner, but could just as easily be Verizon or AT&T) might feel perfectly within its “rights” (because apparently, entities other than persons have rights, as judged by the Supreme Court in a terrible decision) to block access to political speech that does not agree with its owners’.
The air is dry. Very dry. My skin is telling me it’s horribly dry here, even for San Diego. I will quench it in the shower before going to bed tonight. Hopefully, it will feel better in the morning.